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It’s Their Job

It’s Their Job

I’ve been reading a lot lately about battered women getting sent to jail because their children were harmed by their boyfriend, husband, abuser. Apparently this seems to get people all fired up. As if the fact, these women were “battered” somehow negates them from protecting their children. My mother was a battered woman. I’ve seen my father beat her in our front yard until she could no longer stand up. I’ve seen him scream at her, call her names. Belittle her. I’ve seen her hit him in the head with a cast iron skillet and then call his father to come get him before he bled to death. I saw a lot in the eight years I lived with my parents. I also saw my father remove the doorknob on the outside of my door. So that it could only...

Whispers

In the silent moments. The ones where you wiggle your toes and scrunch your nose. The moments in between the inhales and exhales of life.  Not every person gets to know those moments. They are pure and rare and precious. I live in those moments every day. Never unaware the world continues to turn and spin and push forward through space and time. Hurtling faster and faster while I wait. Some days I’m not sure what I’m waiting for any longer. I just know I’m waiting. Hoping. Breathing. In. Then out. That is what I do. For now. In the silent moments. When time stops, and I stare into the abyss. Wondering when or if it will ever consume me. I watch it creep between my toes. Like sand. I wiggle and twitch but it’s still there. Tingling....

What an Army Vet Taught Me Today

What an Army Vet Taught Me Today

Today I had a very interesting experience. It made my heart smile. With all of the things going on in the world, I often wonder what do people think when they see me walk by. I am very obviously Muslim. And just by looking at me you would not know I was American. I do look Arab until you hear my Southern drawl that is. I am always very conscious of my actions in public. I am never rude, even when people are rude to me. I implore the “kill them with kindness” rule because I am American, because I do speak English, because I have lived many years overseas, because my outlook is very unique I feel a strong sense of responsibility to show people that not every Muslim is bad or evil. I feel a huge sense of responsibility to educate people on what Islam...

Finding the One

Finding the One

I’m 37 years old. Most people my age have their life together. They’ve been living their life for many years. I just started living mine five months ago. In the last five months I’ve realized so many things. I realized how much I love my husband and how much he truly loves me. It’s such a strange feeling to have someone not only accept me exactly as I am but to love all the quirky things I do. Someone who encourages me to be as quirky as I want to be. It’s very weird.  My entire life I have been the square peg trying to fit into the round hole. And suddenly I don’t have to fit into the round hole. I don’t have to fit anywhere. I can be just the way I want to be and that is ok. There will be people who love me the way I...

Muslim Girls Being Led Off In Chains: False

Muslim Girls Being Led Off In Chains: False

I saw this image posted about muslim girls being led off in chains to be forcibly married in an article on Facebook   There are so many things incorrect in this article I barely know where to begin. Whenever I see these things I always feel a duty to explain them. Because it gives such a distorted view of Islam. A religion which is truly beautiful and empowering especially towards women. But unfortunately the only things that get shown in the media are incorrect, false, misleading, or outright lies. I don’t really blame the media. They’re just reiterating what they see. I hope people who have seen this article somehow find my blog and come to gain just a little understanding of the truth behind all of this. First I’ll start with the...

Mental Illness is NOT A Get Out of Jail Free Card

I’m so pissed off right now. I just watched a video on Youtube about dating violence. The video is below if you want to watch it. In the video two highschool sweethearts break up. Both are over 18. A month after graduating, the guy kills the girl. He claims he was mentally ill and therefore not accountable for his crime. This enrages me beyond words. Doing something ONCE is not mental illness. Being depressed isn’t even what I would call mental illness. Every single person on this planet gets depressed occasionally. Or has moments where they’re not themselves. That doesn’t mean they are not accountable for their actions during that time. And it certainly does not mean they are in the throes of a psychotic break from reality.  If...

Being Healthy Being Whole

It’s been a really long time since I posted anything. Not because I had nothing to post. I don’t know why I left the blogsphere. Things seemed so chaotic. Even though the chaos was mainly in my head. I”ve spent the last year working very hard on getting healthy; physically, mentally, and spiritually. Working hard on being able to accept myself as I am. Even though I pretty much break every preconceived notion a person could have just by looking at me. I recently started running and think it’s just fabulous. Something I never imagined I’d ever say. Things are both good and on hold at the moment. I don’t know where this journey I seem to be on will end. Right now all I know is I want to be healthy and...